i really admire people who have good diction. it is as though those words flow and come naturally to them. it is simply amazing to realise how words alone can effectively describe the state of emotion one is feeling. i can NEVER describe how i feel in words. i am not blessed with that talent. :(
ct2 coming soon :)
this week is going to be the last week we are going to the old folks home to do service. i will definitely go back there again after my a-levels. really inspiring talking to the people there. :)
life is wonderful (at least for now). :)

and so the dean's list came out today. i am glad i made it up onto the dean's list again. this time for both bio and chem, fulfilling one of my new year resolutions yeah, of getting up onto the dean's list again :) the list apparently doesn't show one's failure. actually, i think i did quite horribly for CTs. it was only pure luck that i could squeeze my way up onto the list and no, i believe i am not humble. pure luck indeed.
i need to work even harder for CT 2. :)) it is coming. hopefully, i can be lucky again and get a place onto that list again. :))
i have chem SPA tmrw. wish me luck man. it is the race against time.

i really should be studying for Bio and Chem SPA but I thought I should spend some time to blog about how I feel about the GE this year.
I totally understand Singaporeans' need and want for change in the Parliament. After all, greater competition leads to better efficiency. But sometimes, the more things change, the more things stay constant. In their quest for change, what price has Singapore had to pay? We have lost good ministers like our Foreign Minister George Yeo, whose dedication to Singapore is really boundless. Change is possible but at what price? I read the newspapers this morning and learned that regional leaders too are shocked that our Foreign Minister was defeated this elections. Mr George Yeo has earned himself international and regional respect and his position simply cannot be replaced overnight.
Singaporeans say they want change because they feel their voices are not heard in the Parliament. They feel that their concerns such as the increasing cost of living are not addressed. HELLO?!?! To me, it is naive to think that by voting the opposition into Parliament, these issues will just disappear. These are issues that the whole world is facing too. These issues cannot be addressed overnight. It is easy for opposition parties to nitpick on the mistakes that the PAP have made and give a super persuasive speech, promising Singaporeans of a better future. But seriously, these are words anyone can say, translating these words into actions is a lot harder. No, i am not a pro-PAP person, nor am I a pro-opposition person.
I am just indignant. I am indignant over the fact that we have lost good ministers like Mr Chiam See Tong (who has wholeheartedly served Potong Pasir) and Foreign Minister George Yeo. It is saddening. I am indignant too because according to my friend, many Aljunied citizens vote the opposition just for the sake of voting. Excuse me?!?! Every vote counts and these people who do not take their votes seriously are doing a great disservice to Singapore by their very own actions.
Then again, we should all give time to let the opposition prove themselves in Parliament. I do not doubt their capabilities but I am just indignant that capable talents in Parliament are voted out! :(
This GE marks a new political landscape for Singapore. I believe that in the next election, there will be more opposition parties surfacing. The next GE will be my turn to vote. I am super excited because it makes me feel I have a stake in this country. Democracy - for the people, by the people. HEEHEE. I will make sure my vote is thought through carefully and not vote just for the sake of voting. I will go attend the rallies. :)) super exciting :))
AHHHHH! i am really sad that capable talents are lost. :( But new talents are entering the Parliament too, so that is good. Hopefully, competition will keep PAP on their toes and Singapore can continue to prosper :) woohooo, I LOVE SINGAPORE. hahahaha. :))

because everytime i come back from the old folks home, i feel a sense of warmth. :))

i cannot seem to will myself to hate you or "de-friend" you because i truly treasure this friendship. sigh, throughout the first half of the day at school today, i kept super quiet (okay relatively quiet as compared to my usual self) because i was sad and was emo-ing. haha.
but GP lesson and my classmates made me laugh again <3 <3 <3 haha. i really love love love my class.
my sore throat isn't healing and yet i am still munching on hello panda. i am addicted to it. like seriously, since last year. :))

when you waved at me today, i could only afford you a weak smile. i need time, time to convince myself you didn't betray me. i need time to convince myself i am wrong.

some people are just innately selfish, my close friends included.
it saddens me to think that pragmatism and your own matters matter much more to you than our friendship. thanks a lot. i feel betrayed seriously. the first time you did it to me, i brushed it off and told myself i was being overly sensitive. but time and again, you betrayed me. WTS is this?!?! if this is your true colour, i am sorry i wouldn't want to be your friend anymore. am i just a pawn in your game of life?
and you think just one SORRY over SMS means that i can forgive you? how naive. i would really want and love to treasure this friendship of ours and i even considered you as one of my close friends, but i am greatly appalled by your actions.

because of you, i will harden my heart. i will never be the same friend that you used to know. you catalysed this change in me. you are just a selfish soul, wanting people to accede to your request and never the other way. selfish creature. it was wrong of me to have made a friend like you.
now, i am just sad, VERY SAD. my heart is heavy because i have lost a friendship.

a few days ago, my younger sister said i was fat.
a few minutes ago, i was told that i have broad and thick shoulders, fat and flabby arms.
i think i have a lot of bye-bye fats. To add to that, I have a bulging tummy. I kid you not.
oh dear. obesity at its worst. FML. :( SELF-ESTEEM ISSUES. 

i just finished looking through a horde of photos (both baby photos as well as my parents' photos) and this strange wave of emotions engulfed me as i was looking through them. :) a nice feeling :) a warm and fuzzy feeling in my heart. reliving childhood memories is so sweet. seeing how mischievous i was in the past would inevitably bring a smile onto my face. it is not as though this is my first time seeing these photos. but everytime i look through these albums, i will have this sense of nostalgia in me. a really awesome feeling that words simply cannot describe. :)
looking through my parents' photos, i realised my mother was quite a stunner. i didn't believe her when she told me she was pretty in the past because there was this stark difference from how she looks like now and then. i guess time will all render us in a state of decrepitude. :( her wedding photos were super pretty and my parents look so loving :)) so sweeeet~ i can never find a guy as sweet and caring as my father (i think). :)) hehe. my father is still sweet and caring to my mother now. :)) my mother recently just cut her finger while cutting apples and my father was the one who dressed her wound and helped her put plaster. small and insignificant but to me, VERY SWEET. :))
i remember when i was young, when my relatives told me i look like my mother, my face would contort into a frown and i would inevitably exclaim "ewwwwwww" very loudly in their face. i remember telling them i would not want to look like my dad or my mum because they are not good-looking. hahahaha. :)) now, i wish i would look like them. i want to be like them. i can never hope for better parents. my mother is the wisest person in the whole wide world to me. seriously. her advices and her sixth sense are always very accurate. :) without her and my father, i think i will not be able to achieve much :))

i love looking at photos because they are a reflection of memories. this is also one of the reasons why i love taking photos (to the extent that people will label it camwhore) because i want these memories (with my friends and family) to be kept alive and ringing in my head.

the warm feeling that i experienced earlier is still resonating within me :) i am relishing every moment of it. i want it to last. i want this feeling to be etched in memory too. :))

i love my parents.
i love my family. what more can i ask for in life? :))
childhood memories. nostalgia. where puerility runs amok :))