i just came back from doing service at the old folks home :)) i really love doing service there. next week we are going to help to bring the elderly to the polling station so they can cast their votes. :)) super excited :D
there was this this lady who had cancer in her urinary tract area and despite that, she was still very very optimistic. i respect her for that. :)) i really respect every single person because they have so much life stories to tell and so much that i can learn from them. they have been through life longer than i have.
many of them regretted not studying harder when they were younger. oh, many also complained about the increasing cost of living in Singapore. I was speaking to this man and he was telling me that the government only gives him $30 for his monthly allowance. Of course, the government paid for his stay there too. But he was telling me how having $1 a day is not enough. He said it wasn't even enough for him to drink 1 cup of coffee (which costs $1.10). He said his medical expenses can come up to $500 a month, which he obviously could not afford. :(
I talked to many others too. While some were very optimistic (actually few), many were just waiting for death to come to them. they will usually just stone there until someone talks to them and they will not talk to each other. So practically, everyday becomes a stoning session. :(
oh, i found out today that some of them were from woodbridge. they seem perfectly normal to me though.

eeks. i shall go do my GP now. there is another video to watch. :)) yay.

My sister got into LAWWWWWW :))) i feel so happy for her. hehe. i really really hope i can get into the course i want next year. >.< till then, i shall work hard. LET'S GO~~~~

i was watching the video on globalisation that mr cheng tasked our class to watch over the weekends. while watching, it triggered some thoughts in me.
in the documentary, thomas friedman who was the director and the narrator of the video was speaking to some village kids in India who were not at the receiving end of the benefits of globalisation. I always had the notion that they were less intelligent than any of us in any developed country but i was obviously wrong. Those kids learn how to use Microsoft Excel, Powerpoint as well as Words at such a young age. I am really super impressed. These kids have grand ambitions too. They all wanted to be astronauts, doctors, chemists and physicists. When I was young, my ambition was to be a cashier (i know this sounds absurd, but yes, i thought it was the coolest job in the world, apart from being a doctor). Their ambitions are starkly different from mine. Even though these kids may not receive the best form of education possible, they are already very mature. Right now, I believe the only obstacle stopping them from realising their dream is the fact that they are stuck in their current socio-economic situation. :( Life is unfair.
You know, I have always been glad that I was selected for ISLE and that I was given a chance to explore the world vastly different from my own. The world out there is so different from what i envisioned it to be. Being in ISLE really allowed me to step out of my comfort zone and allowed me to gain a broader perspective of global issues first-hand. :)) I am glad I was part of this experience and I do not mind going there again. This is one reason why I want to join Doctors Without Borders. To be able to help people in the developing countries and to explore the world out there at the same time, I think it will be a wonderful experience.

I really love GP. GP has helped me widen my perspective about global issues that the world is facing. GP lessons are very entertaining and engaging. Doing well in GP is another thing altogether haha. :))

Life is unfair. But why can't the world be fair? Why can't people in the developing countries receive what we are receiving? Why can't people be less selfish? Why can't all government be transparent and not corrupted? :(( It is possible to just reap the benefits of globalisation and rid the problems of globalisation that come our way? WHY CAN'T THE LOVE BE SPREAD? The world is too complex to decipher. :((
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haha. i realise my classmates never see this side of me. i think i behave rather retardedly in school. i am always SO loud and laughing SO loudly. haha. hmmm... :))

love this song by Hey Monday: CANDLES

The power lines went out
And I am all alone
But I don't really care at all
Not answering my phone
All the games you played
The promises you made
Couldn't finish what you started
Only darkness still remains

Lost sight
Couldn't see
When it was you and me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

Been black and blue before
There's no need to explain
I am not the jaded kind
Playback's such a waste
You're invisible
Invisible to me
My wish is coming true
Erase the memory of your face

Lost sight
Couldn't see
When it was you and me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

One day
You will wake up
With nothing but you’re sorries
And someday
You will get back
Everything you gave me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

my family is just too cute :))
we were on our way home in the car and we were discussing about food in general.

me: you know eating makes me happy. my only gripe is that after eating, i will be DAMN sad.
older sis & younger sis: YEAHHHH!!!
mom: WHY?
younger sis: because i would want to eat more. damn sad because the food is gone.
older sis & me: *gives younger sis a puzzled look*
me: HAHAHAHAHA! i am damn sad because i have to worry about my weight after that. who cares that the food is gone!!!
older sis: YEAH!!! I WAS THINKING OF THAT TOOOO!!!!

my younger sister is such a glutton. hahahaha.

the human heart is very fickle or so it seems. :( i don't know what i want either.

today, we had OG meeting and sleepover. i did not stay for the sleepover though. :(( i promised myself i will after the a-levels. i must convince my parents :))) i love my OG. :)) i love being around them. they are all wonderful people. people whom i feel very comfortable around. very nonsensical bunch of people but i love them the way they are. HH11 forever. :))

some people are just damn mean. with regard to such people, i have nothing to say. seriously. they think they are OH SO COOL and all but please, i think they need to do some self-reflection. to bear with such people in life is just irritating.
today we had some canoe activity :)) it was quite fun but very tiring. i think i was a burden to my partner. :((

i feel like crying. i don't know why either.

omg. i feel dumb. haha

me: eh. this is your earphone. go keep it.
younger sister: *scutinises the earphone* NOT MINE!
me: don't be weird, not yours then whose. your earphone white colour what!
younger sister: THIS IS YOURS!
me: eh, don't be weird. THIS IS YOURS.
me: *scrutinises the earphone" EHHHHHH, IT'S MINE!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAH. *laughs*

such things happen too often. i feel dumb. haha.

i just came back from jogging 2.4km. i am very sweaty now but it is refreshing. hehe. i am trying to trying to keep fit and fight the flabs. haha.

i realised how AWESOME i am today. haha. after having my phone for like 1+ years, i found out today that my camera has the BLACK and WHITE function. i mean i know every camera has that but i didn't know mine existed when i experimented with my phone when i first got it. super loser right. hahaha. so i tested taking a picture with it.

quite nice right? i wanted to use this as my FB PP but my younger sister said i look horrible here. hehe. :))

ahhhhhhh, my thing came. :(((( BAD. i can only pray it will end on tuesday so i can canoe on wednesday :(( i hope it will not rain on wednesday too. hehe. :)) rain rain go away.

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went to FB and i was looking through some things and i realised in comparison to others, i did REALLY BADLY for CTs. i didn't know i fared so badly. oh dearie me. SHUT THE CRAP. I AM GOING TO WORK EXTRA EXTRA HARD NOW. i lack the willpower, or so it seems. i keep procrastinating and keep using the computer for entertainment stuff. URGH. I HATE MYSELF. I NEED SELF-REGULATION. i need to immerse myself in work now. kthxbb.

i just got back from service. it is a very very humbling experience. the people there just have so much to say, their life lessons and their wisdom are just overpowering. their advice and their outlook in life are just stunning. :) i will never get bored from talking to them. :) i can learn so much from them. seriously. i think the young (teenagers like me) should go to old folks home to talk to these people. they just have a lot to offer. :)
oh, today i learnt that there is an old man there who was from raffles. COOL TTM! :))

oh, i think i have the cutest dad in the world. hehe. i love my family. too funny and too cute together. :)) yippeee :) i feel blessed. hahaha.

i get tired very easily these days! :( i don't know why either! maybe because i am growing OLD. i cannot seem to last till 12 these days. my eyes will inevitably close when doing my homework. urgh. CHEM MOCK SPA next week and i think i am really unprepared. i tried reading through the experiments again and i fell asleep while reading. :(( EEKS.

service tomorrow. YAY. exciting. :))

i really hope that thing gets delayed. :)) i wanna have FUN next wednesday :))))

hehe. i love going to school because whenever i am with my classmates, i laugh A LOT. like really A LOT and really LOUDLY. hahhaha. i love my classmates. hehe. :))

need to go back to studying for chem MOCK SPA :)) but, i shall use FB first. hehe. my FB wall is so boring. bleargh. no more new photos and all.

i want to get a tumblr because i think it is beautiful :)) hehe. that shall be after A-levels :))

I always feel mediocre. :(( reading chiam's essay today made me feel even more inferior. life sucks. today fazilah and i concluded we were losers because we kept giving ourselves excuses and reasons for why we performed badly for tests. BAD. i need some form of intelligence in me. maybe a miracle will happen and i will be miraculously smart. hehe.
the way i write stuff too is damn childish and all. when i read other people's blog posts, they are so inspirational. mine, on the other hand, is very shallow.

oh and i keep eating non-stop. i eat while studying. i eat while using the computer. every now and then (and i mean every 10 minutes), i will pop by the fridge and peer inside to get something to eat. I AM A GLUTTON.

oh, i realise something too. people tend to type damn cheem stuff when they are emo! WHY???? hahahaha. if being emo enables one to be cheem, i wanna be emo when taking my GP exam. hahahaha.

another thing, when i look at myself in the mirror, i realise i look SO old. like VERY. :(( it seems as though i have aged a lot over the years. ewwww.... okay, i shall go back to doing my math hw. MATHHHHHHH :))) i love doing math sums.

shi tian

yesterday, i went with carissa, amanda and fazilah to an old folks home to do service there. it was a much much more rewarding experience than tutoring children. the old folks there were so so nice to talk to. hehehe. :) so approachable :)) you know, i always had this misconception that they are there because either they were abused by their children or because their children didn't want them anymore. i was wrong. through the conversations with them, i found out that most of them were there because their children had to work and had no time to take care of them. their children will then take them home to stay for 1 week every month. during school holidays, their children will also bring them on holidays. :)) oh another thing i found out, there was an old man there who was from ACSI originally. hehehe. super cool please. :)) also, he told me how he chased his wife. i love talking to them, partially because i love talking to people. :)) this service allowed me to clear some misconceptions of them. cannot wait for the next session!!! the old folks there are SUPER funny and nice to talk to. :))

got back PW results today. it was such a relief knowing my hard work has paid off. :)) the whole freaking day, i could not concentrate during lessons. i kept looking at the clock and counting down to 12.30pm. it made me even more nervous. hehe. but YAY i got an A so i am really happy. everyone in my group got an A! so yay!!! :))) those late night pracs all paid off. :)) but some people in my class did not do as well even though i feel they rightly deserve to get an A. i cried because i saw them cry. i saw their sad expressions and all and yeah, i started crying.
everyone in my class deserves an A :(((( seriously!! i still feel very very sad for those people who got B. :(((

on a lighter note, CT results are okay except for CHEM. i need to do something about it. dammit. i need to get my A back. >.< i am very very happy for math and bio though. econs is okay. wait till i get GP back. hehe :))

ahhhhhhhh, my blog is so boring but i don't care. :))
tmrw is a long long long day. going out tmrw again with my sister. YIPPEEEEEEE!!!! :)))

shi tian

i realised i am a really ironic person. you know, after looking at people's photos on FB, i always wish for my life to be as interesting and happening as theirs. i would always think why my life is so boring and all. but then at times, i would wish for my life to be simpler, much simpler. i would wish that the whole of RJ would only consist of me and my close friends. hehe. that would be so awesome.
oh, i really really intend to delete some "friends" on FB. they are just mere acquaintances. people whom you do not even say hi or bye to in real life. when i first started having FB, my aim was to see my friend count increase. but i realised there is no point in that. friends who will stay by you and all are only those minute few. :))) and i am really glad for those people to exist in my life. yay. yeah, so i am deleting those that i am not close to SOON, SOON! hahhaha.

going out tmrw with wenyi and carissa. :))) HAPPINESS. :)))) i love my friends just the way they are. :DDDDD

shit. i realise i am becoming very incoherent these days.

on another note, i heard from xinle that there is a rumour that RI only has 53% A for PW this year. it had better not be true. :((( i really really want my A. i worked so hard for PW and practically slogged my way through. >.< RAWWWRRRRR....

CA juniors are a really enthusiastic and funny lot. :))) hehehe. yay. CA camp was damn funny and fotrot was just too awesome. i love the people in there. :))) YAY.