i have had enough of this. please stop comparing me with my friends. yes, they are smart, they are hardworking i concede and i will always be that stupid loser in your eyes, who will NEVER EVER live up to your expectations. you ALWAYS compare me to my friends but whenever i ask you why my friend can have this and why can't i, you always ask me NOT TO COMPARE. it is ironic, is it not? that you are not practising what you preach. it disgusts and annoys me because you are not setting a good example yourself. i know, i can sense your disappointment in me and i try very hard to better myself each time. but somehow the results just do not show. i have not done well this semester and you just scolded me again. can you, for once, look at the EFFORT that i have put in for the test and not the end result. yes, i admit the end result is important, but can you please LOOK CLEARLY at the number of nights i stay up late just to study. no, you will NEVER appreciate the hard work i put in because all that matters to you is my results. then, you start comparing me to my sisters as if comparing me to my friends isn't bad enough. my sisters are way smarter than i am, i know that, i acknowledge that, but do you have to rub it in? because YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND ME. :( and i appear as though i am indifferent about the results i get in front of you. because i don't want you to see that i am tearing inside. tearing because i too am disappointed in myself. i bet you will NEVER realise that! i know this year is a crucial year for me and i am willing to put in my 101% best effort to ace the a-levels. but please, i really really need your support and all. for a start, PLEASE STOP COMPARING. I BEG YOU. because it makes me feel inferior.