i am greatly appalled when i read that children in China were rented out or even sold by their parents to go beg on the streets. either that or they were sold to syndicates and they were treated as money-generating machines. :( should these children refuse to comply to the demands the syndicates have requested, they were tortured with their tongues, lips, ears cut. seriously? what is wrong with these people? their perverse actions are greatly disturbing. seriously. what the hell is wrong with them?
firstly, the parents are at fault. some parents feel their children are a burden to them. therefore, they sold them off to these syndicates just so they could get money. excuse me! children are NOT goods that can be traded or sold. they are humans after all and they deserve all respect they ought to get. if having children is a burden, why bother giving birth to them in the first place? these parents should be jailed or something. seriously. these parents need to be educated. why do such parents exist?
then worse still, the syndicates. MONEY-GRABBERS. MONEY-FACED. they should be eliminated from the face of earth. RAWWWRRRR..... stupid people. can't you guys get a proper job and earn proper money instead of doing so at the expense of the children's suffering? woah seriously.
these cases are not just limited to China. It is happening everywhere in the world. too much injustice in the world. seriously.
CHILD TRAFFICKING SHOULD BE BANNED AND CONDONED.

shi tian

sometimes things just don't happen the way you want it to. no matter how hard you pray and how much effort you put into things, things don't occur the way you want it to. it sucks mad because i have to wear a smile despite knowing i am disappointed inside. terribly disappointed in myself. i have to wear a smile, trying to convince myself it is alright. but who am i trying to bluff? everyone can tell it is a facade. friends shower their concerns and i really appreciate that. but sometimes, these concerns actually cut even deeper because i tend to compare myself to them. we all put in the same amount of effort, why is it that i cannot be recognised for my efforts? i really really am tired. tired of failures. every time i pick myself up, i tell myself never mind, i will treat it as a lesson learnt. but now, i am bruised all over from head to toe, testament to the numerous failures i have dealt with. i cannot afford to fall anymore. people ought to see more beneath the surface. i have said this many times, my optimism is a facade. no one has managed to see through that still.
it will be better tomorrow. how many times can i say this to myself, i shall count. i am still waiting for the day i can proudly say i have recovered from my "injuries".

i am disintegrating. :(

we will NEVER change to be angels for you. you labeled us devils, and worse still BUMMERS as though you are the ONLY one that is normal. please. just cut the pretense, seriously. if you really hate all of us, then why bother acting nice in front of us, and worse still, act CUTE in front of us it is revolting? i do not like FAKE people. if you are unhappy about us, be open about it and tell us instead of labeling us names which we think SUITS YOU MORE. people warned me about you even before i knew our class but i chose to ignore these comments because i thought i shouldn't judge you based on other people's opinions of you. but i was wrong. how right can my friends be about you. seriously.
seriously, i hope you can change to be a better person otherwise you don't deserve the sympathy i am giving you. maybe you should for one, stop labeling others.
angels or demons will never exist unless you perceive them to. seriously. GET A LIFE or get out of our lives. i don't want to leave JC hating anybody. hatred begets hatred. :(

biomedical symposium tomorrow. mad scary. intense cramming now. sheesh. i hope everyone in our group will get a medal. YAY. :DDDDDD

shi tian

shi tian

life's hectic. really hectic. :(
biomedical symposium this coming sunday. omg. i really hope i won't pull down my team. :( seriously. i am like the least knowledgeable one there and i feel really inferior. everyone is desperately trying to cram knowledge and facts into their head, hoping against hope some of these information will get retained. but as for me, ... hahaha. NOTHING GETS IN. 'nough said. i will just try my best that day. MEGA EXCITED ABOUT THE WHOLE EVENT. :))))) YAY. :)) after the event, i have mega lots of catching up to do. too much backlog. BAD. :( i haven't revised for CTs yet. spells trouble huh. sheesh. :((( okay okay.

shi tian

blinded by prejudice. maybe i should not be so judgemental. hmmm... will i be proved wrong? i sincerely hope so.

:)))
i am really really excited for the biomedical thingy. hehe. i know i have said this countless of times but yeah, i really am. i feel fortunate to be part of this whole great experience. it really is DAMN fascinating knowing more about how the body works, anatomy, pathology etc. :) my group is very friendly and that makes things even better :)))
though the readings are intimidating (in terms of amount), i still look forward to reading it all (however at the expense of my schoolwork).

on another note, this morning i was emo-ing and was thinking really hard. what if i really cannot get into medicine? my mother advised me to take on other internships besides the medical ones just in case i cannot get into it. she wanted me to join law firms for interships. but my answer was an ADAMANT no. i really am only interested in medicine and i know law is never the thing for me. but i am fearful because i don't have a backup plan. i need a direction in my life. i am more inclined to the sciences. this year is gonna past so fast and i will have to make these deicisions quickly. i hope i will find a way out soon otherwise i will have to pray extremely hard that i can get into medicine. :))) i really want to. it will be an awesome experience. :DDDD

take 5 was DAMN boring. i am sorry for those who had planned it but i don't really like such events. last year was less boring because at least i played with my beloved OG. this year, i just walk around aimlessly with my classmates. :) bad :( we kept looking at our watches to see when the event will end. it seemed like an eternity. :(

next week will be an extremely taxing week. i need to buck up.
note to myself: I MUST NEVER NEGLECT MY SCHOOLWORK. A-LEVELS IS NEARING. I NEED TO CONQUER IT.
tomorrow is valentine's day. for couples out there, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY.
shi tian

what is wrong with me? seriously?
it is not as though i am not working hard! why aren't the results showing? it is terribly demoralising to get back my grades (close to failure or even fail).
terribly disappointed in myself. really. i am tired. tired of telling myself to give myself another chance to prove myself wrong.

i detest myself. no one will understand that. people always have the impression i am smart and all but seriously, do they even know my grades? failing!!! yes, failing is part of life but CONSTANT and CONSISTENT failing. that sucks mad. it degrades my self-esteem. i have nothing to say. i have been reflecting quite a lot these days to see how i can improve.

please show me a way out. :(

shi tian

in the end, i still succumbed to temptation and relished the goodies placed in front of me. what's worse is that once i start, i cannot stop. hahha. DAYUUUMMMM :((( tummy is showing more ostensibly than ever! shheeessssh!
gonna watch HOMECOMING with my family tonight. jack neo's new movie. it had better be interesting or else..... i will blame my younger sister >:((((

the fact that i am J2 this year has not sunk in yet. maybe i am deluding myself. :P

shi tian

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HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
actually, i don't really feel the mood this year. it came too quickly. :) and then POOF, it will soon be gone in a flash.
chinese new year has always been my favourite festival of the year and it will continue to be. the delicious snacks for me to feast on (think BAK KWA, PINEAPPLE TARTS, REUNION DINNER) woohoo, they keep me salivating.
of course, i have to constantly remind myself to not indulge in too much of such stuff because it is unhealthy.

oh, i was doing research for the biomedical challenge and it was a really gratifying experience. initially, i was taken aback by the sheer amount of knowledge i had to know and the medical jargon that was presented before me simply overwhelmed me. however, after digesting the information that i read, it was a really rewarding experience. i really loved what i was reading. the more i read, my quest for knowledge grew. hahaha. this is certainly not an overstatement. knowing more about the human body was simply enlightening and breathtaking. hehehe. i am not sure of where i need to learn to. the amount of knowledge out there is endless. :)))) there will be lectures prepared for us. cannot wait to attend it. omg. i think i am crazy but i wanna satisfy this craving FASTTTTT :))))
i will move on to reading and researching about the gastrointestinal system tomorrow :) exciting much :D i really really hope the biomedical challenge will be an eye-opener. :)

on another note, i really regret not signing up to be an ogl. sigh. my FB is being spammed by many many orientation pictures. pretty annoying >:(

gonna SHOU SUI tonight. hahaha. :D :D :D

once again, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!

i am so glad no one reads my blog. i like it that way :))

shi tian